antagonizing melencholy

ok people, no sarcasm wit or fun in this blog, bad day=mood to philosophise.. so read ahead at your own risk.. have you ever encountered those times when you suddenly wake up and realise youve been living life in one big delusion, if you have and your trying to emphatise with me "ha! suckers too bad", none of that happened to me, what did happen that lead to the melencholy was that i suddenly sat up(there was no waking up since theres no sleep in law schools) and realised the derilium ive been in the past few days was one big delusion(yea yea i learned new words! gosh), anyhu, so when realisation struck, full sadness happened and thought process went into overdrive and then i got bored of thinking and all, ohh it was one big chain of events.. the point im trying to make here is that, sometimes we tend to believe exactly what we want too despite all facts and situation scream of a big uncertainity trait.. its like the mind plants memories that never existed so that the present state of ignorant bliss stays.. trust me its the worst feeling, and its the hardest to express.. its like you cant take another failure so u plant an event of success and revel in it, ughhh, this is probably the most whiny and philo il ever get, im actually quite suprised at myself, im generally not this lame(ref. previous blogs), but well yea. bad day brings out the worst in some people..im gonna laugh the next time i read it, like a bad hangover photographed and framed.. anyway im sure you people think im having major problems and identity issues.. well again "ha! suckers your wrong again", its a simple case of peer pressure and teenage boy problems.. although the theories based on it was all very sound, this post sucked! but im sad and im gonna cry now.. blecxxxhhh.. actually not really, im jus gonna whine a little more in a more communicative medium.. and i hereby make blogspot promise never to write emo blogs again.. ughhhhhh